bearing blog


bear – ing n 1  the manner in which one comports oneself;  2  the act, power, or time of bringing forth offspring or fruit; 3 a machine part in which another part turns [a journal ~];  pl comprehension of one’s position, environment, or situation;   5  the act of moving while supporting the weight of something [the ~ of the cross].


  • If you’re not reading Ask Sister Mary Martha, you’re missing something.

    I have a special place in my heart for blogs written in character.  Manolo’s Shoe Blog is one.  I really liked Musum Pontificalis until he quit posting.  I wish I knew whether "Sister Mary Martha" really is a nun in a pew-duster, but whether she is or not, ASMM is now one of my daily stops.

    One of her specialties is custom saint-matching.  Asked which saint to pray to for intercession regarding the ability to secure tickets to Pope Benedict’s upcoming visit to Washington DC, SMM replies:

    As for a saint to get you Pope tickets…there are few I would try. St. George is the patron saint of England and therefore the patron saint of getting Stones tickets. With this in mind, the patron saint of Washington DC is our Immaculate Lady.

    Ask Sister Mary Martha.


  • Translation news.

    Darwin points to an interview with Bishop Roche, the chair of the International Commission on English in the Liturgy, and highlights a descriptive explanation of one of the proposed changes in the English translation of the ordinary form of the Mass.  It’s one from the very beginning, so it’s a good place to look.

    Why does the ICEL hope to change the greeting from "The grace and peace of God our Father, and the Lord Jesus Christ, be with you all" to "Grace to you and peace from God, Our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ"?  They mean essentially the same thing; the first one sounds much more natural and the other more stilted; we’re all used to the first one. 

    Reason:  The second one is a quote from most standard English translations of the New Testament.  The distinctive word-order of the greeting appears eleven times.  It is distinctive in the Greek, and the distinction was preserved in the Latin.  And as Bishop Roche points out, that’s an indication from the earliest times of a distinctive way Christians greeted each other.  That’s why we should hang on to it. 

    So maybe it’s even more important than my previous favorite example, that instead of saying "Lord, I am not worthy to receive you,"  we should be saying, "Lord, I am not worthy that you should enter under my roof." 

    Darwin uses the occasion to wish we were all speaking more Latin, arguing from the utility of picking up hot Hungarian chicks at World Youth Day, an argument which I think I can appreciate, if only by analogy.  Still, I’m really excited about the new English translation.  I can’t stop myself from muttering, in my head, things like And with your spirit at Mass. which probably tells you something about how geeky I am.

    Read more of the interview.

    (Incidentally, I was googling around and found some discussions in French which make it sound as though it’s not just we Anglophones who have this kind of problem with our translations.  Maybe Darwin is right — we just need to learn some of the important bits in Latin.  We all know what Kyrie Eleison means and hardly anybody speaks Greek, so why not?)


  • Voting.

    Enter Archbishop Chaput with some perspective:

    I think there are legitimate reasons you could vote in favor of someone who wouldn’t be where the church is on abortion, but it would have to be a reason that you could confidently explain to Jesus and the victims of abortion when you meet them at the Judgment. That’s the only criterion.

    Chaput’s perspective respects human reason, acknowledges that politics is sometimes the art of the possible and sometimes a means of damage control and sometimes a means of expressing truth, and we get to decide which role we are called to play in any given election.  And yet Chaput’s criterion takes very seriously the stakes here with respect to the culture of life.  I daresay it says that the default position is not to vote for an abortion-rights supporter.   And that we take on a great burden of reasoning if we choose to depart from that. 

    My only amendment to it:  Why wait till the Judgment to explain?  We believe in the efficacy of prayer, do we not?  That the saints can hear us?  Then we can explain our thinking now.  Heck, we don’t even have to wait till the election.

    So some of us will be saying to those victims that Chaput references, I really thought this was the best way to help you.  Or, I believed I couldn’t help you but I thought I could help some0ne else.  Or, I know my vote harmed you, but I believed I could help someone else in the fight against real evil, someone who needed it more. 

    And some of us will be saying, I didn’t think you mattered.  Some of us will be saying, I gave your case up as hopeless.  Some of us will be saying,  My personal likes and dislikes are more important than choosing the best way to help you.  Some of us will be saying, Thinking about you made me uncomfortable so I tried not to do it too much. 

    UPDATE.  Amy Welborn takes the same quote and runs with it… required reading

    The point is, yes, the world is complex and decisions have many implications and nuances.

    But there is a simplicity at the core of it: Here we are, put here by the God who loves us.

    What are we doing with this gift?

    It is perfectly fine to sit a little uneasily with our answers. It is okay to re-examine that question daily. It is necessary to not rest comfortably, to not slip into self-justification, to be willing to ask, day after day, hour after hour, “When did we see you Lord?”


  • Chore chart.

    I’ve been tweaking and re-tweaking my children’s chore charts the last few months, trying to make them make sense.  Should they each do the same chore every day, or should it vary? Should I change their responsibilities frequently or keep them on one set until they’ve gotten good at them?  Should they get chores they can do, or chores they need to learn? More chores for older kids?  Should I assign them or should they pick?  I keep experimenting, but nothing seems to work as well as I want it to. 

    My boys are 7 and 4, old enough to work, but not old enough to take over something that needs to be done well.  So the main point of chores at this age is not so much to ease the household burden (if anything it’d be easier on me to do the stuff myself), not even to teach specific skills, but to teach the virtues of generosity, sharing, thoughtfulness, industriousness; and the habits of helping.  To grow young people who say right away, "Hey, can I help you with that?" 

    I think I’ve been coming at it backwards.  I’ve been looking at my long list of stuff I want done and asking, "What pieces of this can the children do?"  And then calling those bits the kids’ chores.  Maybe I need to start by walking round my house and thinking, "What tasks can I find that would teach each child helpfulness, help him grow best from where he is right now?"  Perhaps the tasks I’ll find aren’t on my list of stuff I want done.  Like my friend’s 2-year-old, whose main chore is dusting — neither my friend or I care a whole lot about dusting, but the point is, that’s a chore the 2-year-old can do, and that’s why she has it.  I need to look at little kids’ chores first as something that’s meant to teach them and only secondarily as something that helps me.


  • Lesson of the day.

    Do not set the toaster oven on top of the Learning Wrap-Ups.

    Oscar already knows his 1, 2, and 3 times tables, fortunately.


  • My own personal mommy gap.

    I did something very unusual for me last week:  I scheduled a playdate with another family.  Oscar had made friends with the oldest boy at a co-op function a couple of weeks ago, and I knew the mother just well enough not to be intimidated by the possibility of trying to make conversation, so I swallowed my social anxiety and drove down to Bloomington for the afternoon.  At least twice on my way there I had an attack of "gosh I hope I don’t really embarrass myself by saying something stupid" but of course I had a perfectly lovely time, had to tear myself and the kids away, and nearly made Oscar late for his catechism class. 

    Thinking over the encounter, I noticed something.  We’re new-ish, maybe 2 years, as members of  our bursting-at-the-seams parish.  I haven’t had time to make real friendships, it takes me a while.  But there are a handful of families I gravitate towards, people I’d like to get to know better.   I could tell you right away which ones I mean because I remember names, ages of children, things like that.  At a gathering of many of the mothers I instinctively seek these women out because I really hate mingling and with these I’ve already done at least some of the hard work of making small talk.  Or maybe because I genuinely like them.   The family we visited yesterday was one of these.

    I realized that all these mothers have two things in common, the ones I feel I could be friends with maybe, if I got to know them better, the ones I find myself saying hello to.  The first is that they all have more children than me (the number 5 pops up frequently).   The second is that I keep assuming they are about my age — I mean, I can really tell I’m subconsciously identifying with them somehow as "this is a person who is like me, whose experience and history are similar to mine"– and then some conversation about pop culture will reveal that actually they are five to eight years older than me.  I’ll realize that their high school years were late-eighties, not early-nineties.  And I am always surprised.

    Not that the age difference matters too much.  Homeschoolers are more aware than most of the societal obsession with age-grouping, and of its errors.  (Although in mother-years, we might expect a deeply felt difference between 30 and 40.)  No, I just find it remarkable (a) that I keep gravitating towards, and identifying with, slightly older moms who have a few more children than I, and (b) that I keep being surprised to discover the age difference.  Why do I do this?

    At first I thought, maybe I’m instinctively seeking mentors? But it doesn’t feel that way, and anyway, you’d think I would feel more like "O wise one, enlighten me" and less like "hey, you’re like me, maybe we could get along."  And then I thought, maybe I’m fascinated with bigger families, since I didn’t come from one?  But that doesn’t seem right either. But as I think about the families, I realize that for most of them, the oldest child is in the 9-10-11-year-old range.  And I think that’s the key to understanding it. 

    I’ve written lots about my "tribe" — the other families that we spend so much time with.  It wouldn’t be far off to say we’ve helped each other raise our children.  For seven years I’ve spent two days a week, and many weekend hours too, with these other families.   It so happens that the two other mothers I spend the most time with are all about the same age, within 2 years, and I am in the middle.  And the oldest child in our tribe, who is not mine, is nearly ten.  There’re 10 children in all.  You know what?  I think I instinctively am gravitating towards mothers whom I perceive as having a similar level of experiencing and knowing children.  Obviously I am not the parent of ten children, I am the mother of three and I happen to be getting to know seven others really, really well.  Maybe it’s because of these other children who are such a strong presence in my life that I instinctively seek out the mothers of more children than I have.  They "feel" more like me than other mothers-of-three do.

    Well, that’s an awful lot of meta-analysis, and it definitely isn’t the only reason why I had such a good time, and felt so comfortable, and hardly anxious at all, while visiting yesterday with my children.  Sometimes I think too much!  Now I can turn to being anxious about reciprocating the invitation…


  • The ten commandments of a four-year-old’s gastronomy.

    Commandment the first:  Thou shalt have the same number of meals every day, regardless of when thou gettest up in the morning.

    Commandment the second:  Thou shalt call the first meal of the day breakfast, even if thou eatest it at one p.m.

    Commandment the third:  Thou shalt call the second meal of the day lunch, even if thou eatest it at four-thirty p.m. after having eaten the first meal at one p.m.

    Commandment the fourth:  Brunch?  I know no brunch.

    Commandment the fifth:  Thou shalt call the third meal of the day teatime snack, even if thou eatest it past sundown around the dining table with thine family surrounding thee like olive branches, and even if thou hast blest the meal with the lengthy benediction that thou usually reservest for dinner.

    Commandment the sixth:  Thou shalt call the fourth meal of the day dinner, even if… thou gettest the picture.

    Commandment the seventh:  Thou shalt call the fifth meal of the day bedtime snack.

    Commandment the eighth:  If thou attainest the time of going to bed having already managed to consume five meals earlier in the day, thou shalt demand another meal, Commandment the First notwithstanding, to be called "a second bedtime snack."

    Commandment the ninth, which is the general case of Commandment the Eighth:  If thou attainest the time of going to bed having already eaten n meals earlier in the day, where n is an integer of magnitude five or greater, thou shalt demand a meal to be called the "(n-3)th bedtime snack."

    Commandment the tenth:  If the number of meals that thou hast eaten by the end of a given day is less than the number that, according to thine own arcane and mickle computations, thou deserveth, thou shalt carry over the difference to the next day.

    And thine mother shall roll her eyes and say, "Call it brunch."


  • Testing, testing.

    "What are we doing today, Mom?"

    "Something a little different.  Today at one o’clock a lady is coming over and she is going to ask you some questions."

    "Why?  What kind of questions?"

    "Oh, math, spelling, things like that.  The state has a rule that you have to take a test every year."

    "To see if your mom’s teaching you okay?"

    "Something like that.  You’ll probably have fun."

    We had our first experience as a homeschooling family with a nationally norm-referenced standardized test, as Minnesota law calls it.  In Minnesota, homeschooled students are required to sit for one such test each school year; as long as one parent has a bachelor’s degree (or one of several other qualifications that I can’t remember), we don’t have to report the scores to anyone. 

    I believe in standardized testing, although maybe I’m biased because I was always the kind of kid who really loved test-taking.   Mark too:  What, you mean we don’t have to have school for four days?  And we spend it taking a test that shows how smart we are?  Sweet! 

    I chose the PIAT-R, a.k.a. "Peabody," because it’s not a written test; it’s a verbal interview.    We have plenty of time to learn how to fill in bubbles later on.  I hired a local woman to come and administer the test at our schoolroom table. 

    I was really pleased with the test methodology.  Oscar was totally comfortable, and he squirmed with delight when he knew the answers to the questions.  I had explained ahead of time that everyone gets about the same number of answers wrong on this test, because the idea is to keep going until you miss a certain number, and then it stops; so he should not be surprised when he got to some questions that he didn’t know the answer to, because that’s how the test works.  He accepted this and seemed to enjoy himself, uttering a good natured "Darn!" when he missed one. 

    I was particularly interested in the spelling portion of the test.  I’d made up my own spelling curriculum, and was curious about whether the order of presentation of materials had been effective.  I watched as Oscar got every word right all through the early ones — all material I’d presented to him already — and then, spellings that I knew he hadn’t studied yet began to show up, and sure enough, he missed them all, bang bang bang (but gave answers that followed the phonics patterns he already knew — e.g. giving "wether" for "weather").  So I was really pleased!  He was right where I had expected him to be based on the spelling study we’d done up to now.  And it was right on grade level, too.

    At the end, the tester let Oscar choose a new pencil from a colorful sheaf she’d brought with her, let Milo have one too, wrote up the results, handed them to me, and left.  Painless, and only a little more than an hour.


  • Human trafficking in the Twin Cities area.

    The story is here.

    As it should be, it’s an example of prosecuting the people who profit from prostitution rings, and moving to protect, not to prosecute, the women who are exploited by them.

    The analogy to prosecutions of people who profit from illegal abortion, and declining to prosecute women who are exploited by it,  should be obvious. 


  • 3 engineers + 1 seamstress = $300 worth of savings.

    Melissa appeared at the birthday party already flustered from a fruitless search for a five-point-harnessed car seat for her very tall three-and-a-half-year-old.  He’s plenty big enough for a mere booster seat, but he’s not mature enough — he keeps wriggling free from his seatbelt, frighteningly fast, while Melissa’s on the highway.   "What am I going to do?" she asked.  "There are only four carseats in the world that are big enough for him, and they’re all hundreds of dollars, and they’re only just big enough.  He’ll outgrow them."   

    We, three of us engineers and one a capable seamstress, and all of us parents, sipped our tea and tossed out suggestions.  Intensive seatbelt training?  No, not secure enough, and she needs a solution now — it might take weeks before she felt he could be trusted.   Special, large carseats made for developmentally disabled older children?  Just as expensive.  Restrain him more securely in his booster seat somehow?  Hmm.

    "He doesn’t have to be really restrained," she said, "he just has to think he is.  He won’t even try to open a doorknob if he feels the slightest bit of resistance.  I think it just has to be different from the seatbelt.  He already knows he can get out of that," she sighed, "even if I pull it all the way out so it ratchets back in and locks against his chest." 

    T. O. M. joked, "You need some kind of straitjacket."

    Hannah ran with it and suggested, "Suppose we make a canvas panel that the seatbelt goes through, something that ties behind him?"  She looked around for a pencil to draw what she was thinking of, then prodded by T.O.M., went to the dry erase board — we were in their schoolroom — picked up a green marker and sketched a little boy sitting in his booster seat, wearing a cloth panel with a channel through it for the chest strap and another channel across his lap, a smile on his face. 

    "No, you have to draw him screaming bloody murder."  She changed the smile to a wide open O.  "Does the seatbelt come out of it?" 

    "No, I would sew the seatbelt into it.  It would become a part of the seatbelt. And it would have a tie that went back between his legs and tied to the one that went over both shoulders."

    "So it would be a seatbelt suit."  "A suitbelt!"

    This seemed like a good idea at first and we were satisfied, especially as Hannah said she already had the necessary canvas, thread, and needles; but we kept thinking, because it seemed unnecessarily complicated to get him in and out of it.

    "What if we use nylon webbing?"  We all own the same type of booster seat, so it was easy to collaborate.   "Suppose we run a loop through here — and here — and then another one up from here –"   "It’ll be easy — but we’ll need to use one of those chest clips they have on car seats.  Does anybody have an old car seat? "  It seemed that we had all just thrown one out and failed to cannibalize the hardware first. 

    Then Mark remembered the simple harness in the kids’ bike trailer, how the strap runs from above the left shoulder, down through a ring on the end of a second strap that comes up from between the child’s legs, and then back up above the right shoulder.  "Oh, let’s do it like that!  You only need two pieces."  The sketch on the whiteboard acquired a second layer of scribbles, then a third.

    Hannah disappeared into her basement sewing room and came up with a fistful of nylon webbing, cut in pieces three feet long, purple and blue and brown.  "Why do you have that?" we asked delightedly.  "I was going to make backpacks for the children — a few years ago," she answered sheepishly. 

    "Show me what you mean," said Melissa, and I took a couple of pieces of webbing, got out of my chair and turned around — I draped one length around the back, then looped the second in my hand and put my knee on it to hold it to the chair seat.  "We drill a hole down through the seat here — and this loop comes up from the seat.  We put a ring on the loop.  The ring is about at the middle of his chest.  This other piece comes down over his shoulder through the place where the seatbelt goes, passes through the ring, then goes up through the other side and around the back of the seat and connects with the other side.  You’ll put a click-buckle, or whatever you call those things –"

    "The kind of plastic buckle that’s on a fanny pack," Hannah interjected.

    "–Yes, that thing, you’ll put it on the shoulder strap to close it.  So all we need are two pieces of webbing, one ring, one buckle, a little buckle to hold the strap underneath the seat, to keep it from coming back up the drill hole."

    "I’ll use my quarter-inch router bit," volunteered Mark. 

    "I’ll go to Midwest Mountaineering tomorrow on my way to the grocery store and buy the buckle," I volunteered.  "We’ll have it for you tomorrow afternoon!"

    "But will it still work okay in a crash?"  Mark went to the board and showed how the seatbelt itself would still provide all the crash restraint, the webbing’s only meant to restrain him in his position — just like the booster seat it would be attached to.  "But will his throat go against it if he leans forward?"  "Not if we have it tightened correctly — the ring will pull the shoulder straps down to the middle of his chest."

    We were satisfied,  and Melissa was delighted — she’d save three hundred dollars!  We poured another round of tea while she told us how glad she was to have engineers for friends.  I picked up my diaper bag and examined it.  I’d added a sternum strap to it a couple of years ago so it wouldn’t slip off Milo’s shoulders when he carried it for me.  I picked up a long piece of nylon webbing tangled on the floor and examined it too. 

    "What are you doing?"

    "This buckle’s the right size."  I had the sternum strap off in a minute and showed the click-buckle to Hannah, along with the two small friction buckles for tightening.  "Here, take this — cut it here — sew it there –"  She disappeared downstairs again, and I ran out to our van to fetch a booster seat, the kind with the back and headrest.   Hannah returned with the female half of the buckle secured to the end of the strap.   I ran the other hand through the male buckle, passed the strap through both shoulder-strap channels on the back, and clicked the buckle closed; the strap now hung loosely like a necklace.

    "That looks like a choking hazard," said someone.  But Mark had already picked it up.  "Take off the seat cover," I said; maybe the seat already had a hole in it for some reason, one that we could use to pass the bottom strap through.  But Mark had already detached the back from the seat — and there was a place to attach the strap!  He looped it through; I handed him one of the little friction buckles, and he ran both ends through the friction buckle to close the loop and put the back back together.  "There." 

    "How does that work?"

    I unclicked the click buckle on the "necklace," ran one end through the loop of webbing that came up from the bottom of the back — "this part will run under his bottom and up between his legs" — and clicked it closed again.   "There — a perfect Y-harness."

    Someone went and fetched her little boy and told him, "Look, we have a new seat for you!"

    "A new seat for me?"

    "Yes, um, the kind that race car drivers have."

    "A race car driver seat for me?!?"

    We opened the buckle, sat him in the seat, pulled the loop strap up between his legs, ran the shoulder strap down over his left shoulder, through the loop strap, and back up over his right shoulder.  Click.  He was in, and grinning happily.  (I guess Hannah’s sketch had been correct the first time.)  It didn’t quite fit, so we fiddled with the buckles a bit, and eventually sent Hannah down to the sewing room to splice two straps together, and then went out to retrieve a seat that actually belonged to Melissa and not to me, but finally — after a little more than an hour — we had engineered a supplemental restraint system that (a) didn’t interfere with the seatbelt, (b) hadn’t required any tools except Hannah’s sewing machine, (c) was quick and easy to fasten and unfasten, (d) made the boy happy,  (e) used common household materials, at least if nylon webbing and sternum strap bits can be denoted "common," and (f) did not cost 300 dollars.

    I haven’t heard yet if the boy has managed to escape from it, but I’ll report back soon.


  • Feeling at home.

    We were at T.O.M. and Hannah’s house (TOM = the other Mark) after their oldest son’s birthday party.  Besides the usual people — us– a few neighborhood kids had been invited, along with their parents.  It was a low-pressure party, the way we like it.  The newly-minted eight-year-old had requested playtime in the local playground, plus "Heidi food" (goat cheese, goat milk, and black bread), followed by cake and ice cream at home.  The children played and had a great time.  The adults had tea and/or wine in the kitchen and chatted about crazy-expensive birthday parties and gluten-free chocolate cake recipes. 

    When the "party" part was over and the neighborhood people had gone home, the rest of us looked around, asked each other in whispered tones if the "other people" were all gone, and breathed a sigh of relief.  Then laughed at each other and ourselves, content to be so at home in each other’s homes and company that when there are other guests we feel as if it’s us who’re all playing the role of host and hostess.


  • Massaging the numbers.

    I’m sort of surprised at some of the info in this piece — I had been under the impression that the Guttmacher Institute, despite its associations, was generally acknowledged to produce reliable data.

    Dr. Keith Schumann, a Ph.D. statistician from College Station, Texas, examined the research reported in the study and found several problems behind the numbers that Guttmacher and the WHO released. … Some of the more telling numbers reported by the Guttmacher Institute included a 100% “safe abortion” rate for parts of Asia that include China and North Korea.  Therefore, even forced abortions, by the totalitarian governments of these Communist countries, fall under the definition of “safe abortions”. 

    That might depend on your definition of "safe"… but how did they get any kind of reliable information about North Korea?